Liberated from my Hair

While on a week long vacation in the Caribbean I discovered freedom from worrying about my hair.

Yes. I don't have to worry about my hair, the horses hair nor the manufacturer of synthetic hair.  There will be no more hiding behind wigs or weaves.

Finally decided to go natural and by making that decision I was able to get in the pool and go to the beach and emerge my entire head under the water.

African American women who have chemicals, weaves and wigs feel uncomfortable doing that. By swimming in the pool or beach that would mean having to style the hair all over again.  There's a lot of work that goes into styling processed hair and weaves. So a hairstyle may have to last a long time so women of color may feel restrained from enjoying a nice swim.

I am truly not my hair and I am overjoyed about it.

I am NOT my hair ~ India Arie
She was absolutely right about that statement.

Loving the skin I'm in.

No Limitations

As I sit here in a place of solitude my reflections of the past haunts me.

Failures, disappointments and shame. I look around second guessing whose fault led to my demise was it you, him or we.

At the end of the day there's no one to blame not consistent, no commitment, hidden talents, laying as waste in a deserted place with dry bones.  The memories of what could've been, the present thought of what could be.

Limitless...

Deciding Factor

Today as I walked out of my luxurious room at an all adult resort "Breathless" in the Dominican Republic I was approached by a Caucasian woman who appeared happy and relaxed. 

She appeared to be in her mid forties wearing a straw hat and a black long sun dress.  As we passed one another she said "good morning" I said "good morning! It looks like it's going to rain doesn't it?" 

Although it was nice and sunny and hot enough to grill a hot dog on the sidewalk rain was soon to come.

We made small talk about choices and how a choice can be good or bad.  Although we may find it difficult to do but choosing can be detrimental to your future. 

Whatever the choice job, relationships, family matters changes do happen so choose wisely.

The View from my Eye's

BREATHLESS

The Dominican Republic is the point of destination these days.

Dominican Republic is simply gorgeous with a sun so hot it  kisses your face  in the morning.

Driving up to the luxurious hotel  destination "Breathless Resorts & Spas" I felt like I've arrived home to my mansion. Servants were waiting to serve us all week long. Aw, what a feeling.

As we entered our room we were met with luxury, royalty and simply breathtaking views!

Breathless!

Take time to Play

We all must work to take care of ourselves but playtime is good!

Working brings stress at times and we must unwind so take time to play!

Sizzle

No productivity nor sounds of notebook pages flipping to display work in progress just visual emptiness.  Blank canvas.

Build a buzz search out ideas meet new people, new vision or fresh manna from on high.

Make things sizzle get empowered and ignited start a fire and make it sizzle.

~ Vera

Road Most Traveled

Same view now has become distorted commonplace living has now become a prison.

No authorities in my view, but yet controlling leaders in the white house dictates my every move.

Disjointed and fragmented behind closed doors desiring to be free no gate keepers or book keepers or regulations.

Desiring a relationship with the working class living without boundaries.  Rising at breaking speed to the fortune 500 club dominating in businesses where dreams can be seen.

Dreams that have manifested from plotting, planning networking, and sleepless nights exercising a God given right to live out loud making money at a rapid rate.

Freedom earned from lessons learned from generations of legacy makers. Momma would recite religiously "keep a roof over your head!" The rhythm of that chant haunted me all of my life.

Taunts me in my sleep and mourning is ever present. Emotional breakdown within my soul darkness and cobwebs reflects an empty abandoned house.  Looks good on the exterior by interior is desolate.

Driven is what they called me not knowing later on in life I would relinquish full custody signing up for a branch of service that strips this thing called vision.

SIT BACK AND TAKE A SIP

SIT BACK AND TAKE A SIP

The sun kissing my face as I embrace this new day.  Fantasizing of how sweet it would be just being in the moment no phone calls, text or Facebook notifications ringing in my ear.

Building my mind up to embrace the noise and redundant sound of my name being called throughout the day.  If I sound like there's hesitance in my tone that's because it is silently wishing people would leave me alone.

Leave me alone to allow my mind to unwind hit delete and just clear my mind.  Clear my mind of request and demands that come my way all day leaving no room for me to dream or even take a break.

Take a break of putting on this façade of who people want me to be you fill in the blank on any given day or any given moment I will be what I have to be.  But what I really want to be is "ME".

So I conclude that today I am going to sit back, yes, sit back and have a sip of sweet tea.  Sweet tea sipping reminds me of those hot steamy days of in Atlanta where I dreamed a lot.  I dreamed dreams that have not come true, yet my dreams have not died nope they are not through.

I am going to sit back embark on new ideas flowing through my mind and sip sweet tea and DREAM BIG and be ME!

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Moonlight Drive

As the alarm clock goes off into this melodic melody I look up only to find out that it's 12:30am.  No sleep for the servants that God hand picked, cause there's always some need that has to be fixed.
I stumbled in the dark trying to find my purse and keys, no need to put on clothes because I slept ready roll clothes to go! Clothes to go no time to waste.

Can't you hear it in the distance are you near are you near I have to get to work so please come here!
As I drive through the night hungry and sleepy I try to fight. Finally made it to the destination only to leave there and get to another location workers outside standing in line. 

But wait that was not the end of my midnight drive now preceding to drive to where I reside.  Ah! at last I see those dim lights in the midst of the dark dust with a hint of moonlight glaring in the background it's as if my house was saying welcome home and come on in and sit for a while....

Home... at last.

There is a Time

There is a Time

Why do we perceive that we can put off time like pausing our favorite TV show.
When I was a little girl, the saying went...
I have all the time in the world.

But that was back than, and now time does matter.
Time slips through our hands like sand passing through
our finger's on the beach on a hot sunny day.
Time tends to evaporate like water on a hot pavement in the sun, I can also hear time sounding like tick tock, tick, tock I gotta' run
and screams out if you do not use me
I will be on way.

So I understand that there is a  time and time is now
to take a chance, glance or get pounced. Pounced by the
regrets that I didn't take advantage of what I had
so today as the sun shines through my mini blinds
I will raise my head and embrace the dawn
and say yes, I will cease the moment I will cease the day
because there is a time and it will not stay...

"My Best"

"My Best Goes to You"

It seems to not matter
that my life has become fragmented almost shattered
for reigning down on you gifts of silver and gold
while my feet lay cold at night.

Almost bare cupboards, tattered clothes that are too old
Can't afford to buy anything new
Because what I have I give it all to you
And I tell myself Oh! I can make due.

I give you my best... yea I give my ALL to you.